Back in the day, when my wedding countdown was at like 655 days, I used to wonder what I'd be thinking right before I got married. Would I be nervous? Would I be prepared? Would I be freaking out?
Well here I am, just days before the big day and here's what I'm thinking:
- Will I be able to eat in that dress??? On one hand, I hear you rarely get to eat at your own wedding. On the other hand, I know myself. You know how some people lose weight when they're sick because they lose their appetite? Yeah, that's not me. I eat MORE because I'm sitting in my pajamas watching Maury. There's no question of my eating. I'm just worried because my wedding dress is just a bit tighter than my tshirt and sweatpants.
- Will I be able to walk in that dress??? Without the petticoat, it has about 5 layers of tulle. With petticoat, it has about 15. I couldn't even fit through the dressing room door and now I'm supposed to walk down an aisle. Next to another person. I'm slightly nervous I'll sideswipe people on the way down.
- Will I cry? Right now I cry thinking about my father handing me off to a man who might not realize that I am useless when it comes to checking the air in my tires. I cry thinking about our first dance. But the real question is whether or not I'll cry when it's actually happening. Who knows. Maybe I'll be too busy thinking about tires.
- Will I have fun? I know it sounds like a silly question but from what I hear, you don't get to eat, you don't have time to dance and you don't get to talk to your friends. That doesn't sound very fun to me at all.
- Will anyone notice the details? Well, will they???? I've spent the past two years designing, cutting, adhering, addressing, hole punching, and assembling. All for details that people will glance at and either leave in the pew or toss in the trash. But I guess they'll be too busy having fun eating, dancing and talking to their friends so I can't really blame them.
And last but not least, the big question of the week is:
What, in Heaven's name, am I going to do when it's all over?!